¡Hola mis amigos y otros!
I sense this is going to be a project, consuming multiple days as the first sentence has already been "Saved to Drafts" about the day before yesterday or something. TBH, I don't really want to type about the word of today 'cause the letter Q is lame. Don't ask me why, I don't know, it just is. That letter just gives me far too less options and almost deliberately decided that I have to resort to random choosing in the dictionary, as no fun or strange words start with a Q, something I am kind of amazed by, since the letter itself is pretty strange.
Anyway, quietude. The meaning of this partly known and standard word is the state of calmness and quiet. Another word, quietism was also pending the status of word of the day (meaning calm acceptance of things as they are), but I just decided not to do two words that are almost exactly the same. *lack of inspiration*
The quietude of my mind, it's something that I can try and explain to you folks by typing and typing until I've created an entire essay about myself, but as no one is actually waiting to read that, I won't. I could also try and mention my thoughts about the mere existence of any quietude in my mind whatsoever, as I never stop thinking, but I'm too bored yet not yet bored enough to start rambling about that sort of stuff.
There is no state of calmness in my mind in any way. Surely, I can turn off my head/brains/whatever and decide not to think the things I normally think, but I'd be still thinking them, just not really thinking about them. Ok, even to me that sounded weird so I'm guessing it's not really clear what I mean. Uhh, I always think everything that I can possibly think of, all at the same time but I choose which thoughts I put to the front and centre of my thoughts, and which thoughts are only present in the background. When I don't think, I can still think (or see) my thoughts, but can't think them as a thought itself. Like looking at all the papers on your desk (assuming you can be just as messy as I am and thus creating an organized chaos) and being able to read all the titles or the pictures on the sheets, yet not reading the rest of the words. Yeah, something like that.
Of course, reading about how I think is one of the things most (read: all) people don't really care about. Instead of continuing this train of thoughts, I will.. what will I do?... I'm now going to do.. uh..
Oh what the heck, who am I to pretend I give a damn about what you all want to read, this is my blog and right now I'm typing about the fact that I'm typing about the fact that I'm typing what I think while I'm thinking about what I'm going to be thinking about instead of thinking about the fact that I actually should be thinking about what I want to write about what I'm thinking, in order to let you read what you are currently reading and therefore think what you are now thinking about what I'm typing about and what I'm thinking about which is actually the thought of thinking what I think and then typing what I type and then thinking about what I'm typing and of course then typing about what I'm thinking about typing to you what I'm thinking about, which is the fact that I'm typing about the fact that I'm thinking about the fact that this sentence is way too long at the moment which means that I'm going to stop thinking about what I'll be typing about and just start thinking about other things.
For all people who didn't understand what I just did: Yes, this sentence was as clear as anything to me and was an example of the way I think.
For all people who actually did understand: welcome to my life, try to do this all day (and night) long and see if you can keep up ;)
Kudos to you all,