For the millionth time in my life, I decided to change. What a surprise there! For the thousandth time I think it will work. No revelation there either. For the hundredth time I'm telling myself it must work. This is a blast. For the tenth time or somewhat less or more I feel it is going to work. Whoosh getting close! Will this be it? Will this time be different? Exactly when do you know what is real and what is just a wonderful idea never to become reality?
As cynical as I am, I give it a 7% chance of working out. This way I'll be mostly right when it fails, and positively surprised when it doesn't. For the people who know me longer than the two minutes it took to read this, you know this is me. For all the others, I decided not to let my life be decided by the amount of series I watch. Again. Not the first time I say this, probably not the last either.
As usual around the fourth paragraph, let me explain the title. I'm here anyway, might as well write some shit down. Step 6 of the well known 12-step-program not only for AA but all addicts, means to be entirely ready to have God (read: any good person around or yourself) remove all the defects of your character. In this case, my beloved TV programs. I don't believe in the religion stuff but for the rest the program makes sense. I accepted, decided and admitted. Now the acting part. That's tough man!
Anyway, by deleting 10 out of slightly more than ten I'm starting on number 6. If all else fails, I'll have a subject to talk about again next week or so. If it works, I'm wondering what to do with the making amends part of the steps. Have I hurt people other than myself with my addiction? Or did I just keep it all in?
Wish me luck, or not. Whatever.