Then I remember us and smile no more.
I make fun of these people, have always done and will probably always do, but would I not do the same? Would I not do everything to only hold you for a few minutes? How can I laugh and still want to do that exact thing? I'm not a very affectionate person but now more than ever would I be forever thankful to have you in my arms.
Just hold you and keep you in my embrace.
Until we both can't stand up any more, until we have to sit down, only to watch each other in the eyes. Public and sweetness, two things that in my opinion shouldn't be combined, ever, but for us there is no other way. Who am I to judge whether others can't too, whether they do not have to cope with the very same? Next time I will not be so judgemental, next time I will accept more of these other people, for they could be in the same situation as me, as us.
Life isn't easy for any of us.
I need to remember that, the world does not only care for me and me alone. Though maybe, just maybe, it can cut me some slack and grant me my wishes, this time I hope it'll do it soon.
Or just try not to think of these things too often, thoughts like this poison my mind, for I could be thinking of many more and better things, things that actually make sense and don't drive me crazy....